Worries...

Growing up, I was always a carefree child. I never really worried much about the unknowns ahead because I always knew my parents and my family would be there to help me out when and if something goes wrong. Doing well in school, performing well on stage and playing hard were my only concerns.

For the past decade, however, my life has taken a sharp U-turn and thrown me into one twist after another. Somehow and somewhere, I have gradually learned to fret over the unknowns and hesitate before putting a foot forward. When things don’t go according to plan, I often catch myself trying to think out all the worst scenarios. I figured this way, I could at least be emotionally prepared when things go wrong. Right?

But this way of life has made me uneasy and unhappy. I am just not a pessimistic person to begin with. I am not used to negative thinking and I was born a glass-half-full person. Being a worrywart has taken a toll on my quality of life, and the negative energy affects the people around me.

So I’ve decided. From today on, I will try to worry less and live in the moment. There are things in life that are just beyond our control. If we constantly worry about the unknowns, that could translate into hundreds of sleepless nights which in turn could result in anger and depression. We will eventually end up hating ourselves and drive away those we truly care for us. Not good.

This is what I’ve been practicing. If something happens, I will give myself 30 minutes max to think it over and figure out a plan of action. From minute 31st on, I will try to block the worry from my thinking and move on with my routine. It’s easier said than done as it is human nature to worry about the unknowns. However, this is the only way I can keep a balance in my life.

And the only way to keep my stress level down so I don’t impose extra weight on my already fragile heart. Sigh.