I passed!!!

To those who care: YES, I PASSED!!!

I kinda felt the results would be released this week, but I honestly didn’t expect it so early. I thought it would be more like Thursday or Friday. I’ve gotten into a habit of checking my emails on my phone every morning I get into the office. This morning when I turned on the phone, OMG, THERE WAS THE EMAIL!!! My head just went blank for a second. I had absolutely no thoughts going through my mind until I opened up the email and saw “Congratulations!!!” I swear my body just fell completely limp at that very moment.

Just so I could make sure it’s real, I forwarded the email to my company email address just to take a clearer look. There, it became a reality. The certification of passing is attached and it has my name on it. I swear I would’ve broken down in tears if I weren’t at my office. This was the light at the end of the tunnel I had been waiting for for so long. Fives years of excruciating journey and now, I can finally rest at ease.

I went back to look at the email (I swear I’ve scrutinized every part of the email, including the margins) and I realized the email was sent at 12:20am this morning. Then I went online and checked the forums. Obviously, a lot of people had found out yesterday that the results would be released today. Given the overwhelming anxiety level, I bet 99.99% of them stayed up till midnight/this morning to get their hands on the results. They eventually brought down the site and no one could check their results for a while. I can’t imagine how nerve-wrecking the wait would’ve been.

I, on the other hand, was completely oblivious of all this. I did not know the results would be released today. I did not know the results would be up by midnight. I did not know I was supposed to be up and refreshing the webpage 10 times per second. I had no idea. Like any other day, after work yesterday, I went home, took a nice shower, watched some more of Bong Dal Hee and had a full night of sleep. The bliss of ignorance. I experienced the saying first-hand this time. It’s indeed bliss and a blessing.

My score is high enough that I can get waived into DC without sitting for the exam again.

It’s been a busy day for me at work and a busy day emotionally. It’s a good day to rejoice, but not a good day to reflect. One day when I am calm enough, I will sit down and try to relive the past 5 years in my heart. There will be tears and smiles. There will be wounds and trophies. In the end, it’s 5 years of battling against the odds and realizing a dream that once seemed so far away.

Today is a milestone in my life. Tomorrow will begin a new journey.